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Dedicated this song to Mohd Azmi Bin Mohd Noor.(Look at the lyrics, it is for u) "U touch every place in my heart, I wanna spend the rest of my life with u by my side forever n ever" "I dunno how u do, wat u do, I'm so in love with u, it juz keeps getting better" -------------------------------------------------------------------- I forgot to update-last mon I mit him. He's not werking dat day so we mit. Luckily my mum allowed. Lagipon we miss each other badly..Aww..Hehe We watched a movie- 9. He bought a hp. We only met for a while coz my family wanted to visit relatives. Sempat jgk tgk wayang although we hv to mit only 4 awhile. We mit ard 3pm n I reached hm ard 6pm. Sekejap kn? Bt dpt lepas rindu.. Labels: Je t'aime
These days everywhere I go, I'll be hearing abt engagement, marriage and having child. I realise all have grown to adults alrd. Each of them now have their own life.
I still rmbr when I was a child, my relatives and I used to play together. We were very close. But now, I feel that I can't click with them anymore.
I myself dunno why. Maybe we are shy to talk especially for relatives of the opposite sex. For girls, they are now even prettier than me. I think bcoz of my nature which is quiet. I always wait for the other to talk to me first.
During open house that time, my family and I met our old neighbours. Coincincidencely, they are related with the one that we came to the open hse. Their daughter has a child now-3 yrs old that always look at me during the open hse while the other daughter will be getting married soon.
I didn't recognise them when I see them bcoz all grown up alrd. My sis and I love to play together with them when we were neighbours. I only rmbr their mother's face.
And 2 of my anak sedare have married last yr and 1of them is pregnant now.
In TV too, I'll be hearing about these topics. If not abt engagement, it'll be marriage. If it is not that, it'll be having child. Hmm..
All have become adults..Just waiting for their invitation of their child's marriage.
Another visiting hse to hse yesterday. Got open house so my family and I went there. My sis didn't want to follow, wan to study for her attachment. Then we went to another hse- my dad's bro. Just 2 houses and we were so full..He went to F1-sent by his company, he got task to do.
I dunno dat the exam results are out alrd until I read my fren's blog. My heart beat fast as I was scared of the results that I'll get. All this while, I keep thinking abt the results and scared if I have to retake any modules.
I took my pillow and hug it tightly while I opened my Leo. My eyes looked closely at my laptop screen....waiting to see the results..how I've done
Cut it out la Fatimah..Basically I was so nervous dat time..U dunno how worried sick I am all this while.
Without I realising, tears roll down my cheek. Tears of happiness as I was glad that there were no E or F in the results. Syukur Alhamdulilah.
But...I really have to work hard next semester to get GPA of abv 2. I dunno what's my GPA this semester. But what I heard frm 1 of my faci, we have to get GPA of abv 2 in order not to retake the modules. I'm not so sure if we are able to continue to 2nd year.
All this term or rules, I'm not so sure yet.
I can't be very happy yet. I must get a diploma at the end of my schooling, that's my target.
Fatimah, pls work hard k. In the end, u'll lead a happy and easy life. Dun u wan that? (I'm motivating n talking to myself.)
On Thursday, my family and I didn't went out visiting house to house due to some problem. We started yesterday. Only 2 houses we went coz we started at ard 6pm.
Yup, ystd was our 1st raya as we start to go out. Today not sure yet. Afraid there might be relatives coming tonight.
While waiting, apa lagi watch Naruto ler. Now i'm at episode 195. 25 more episodes to go. And there's part 2 too-Naruto Shippuden.
After a long time didn't get to eat outside with family, yesterday is the day where my dad treat us to McDonald. Except that my sis didn't follow bcoz of her attachment.
My dad has promised my bro when he get his paid, he'll buy for my bro Ben 10 shoes. So ystd was the day. He invited me along to follow. My mood was ok so I tagged along. Ane tahu dpt mkn free..and yup my dad treat us.
No one came to our house these 2 days. Perhaps weekend, there'll be relatives coming. This afternoon/evening, my family and I will start visiting house to house. Get ready Fatimah to bring ur empty stomach.
Labels: azmi, i really love uI feel more n more syg towards him... And have imagine sharing life with him. I dun wan anytink bad to happen, I want our relationship to run smoothly..I'm scared..I dunno how's my life will be without him. His presence occupied my life n has make a great impact..I'm always happy with him by my side..I'm afraid if the happiness is only juz a temporarily one..
I wished time pass by really quickly and all runs smoothly..I want to live with him. No one can ever replace him in my heart. He's the one for me. No one can behave the way he does. No one can love n really syg me the way he does..No one........
I'm really grateful to him.
Every day I think what will happen in future. I'm scared..I dun wan to lose him
Never say goodbye when you still want to try, never give up when you still feel you can't take it. Never say you don't love the person anymore when you can't let go.
Get this meaningful sentences frm 1 of my fren's fren blog. It sure has a deep meaning.
Well yesterday, my family and I didn't went out for Hari Raya. My dad said on Wed or Thurs we start visiting house to house. But I managed to went out with him and his family. Itupon last minute. He called me ard 7pm+ and said he wanted to come to my hse then invited me to jalan raya with his family.
I asked my mum for permission and quickly rushed getting ready wearing my previous year of baju raya and a bit of make up. Started to jln raya at 9pm. Late huh..
And came home ard 12 midnight. They still wanted to continue visiting hse to hse. But He and I went home 1st as it was late alrd and he have to wake up early in the morning to go to work.
My stomach was full and I was very tired with just 2 houses. Apa lagi if go to more than 2 houses? I think I'll be sleepwalking going to the next hse as I just wanted to sleep.
Most importantly, I enjoyed myself n happy as I get to mit him..hees..maklumlah rindu..but itupon mcm rasa my rindu 2wards him is still there. I miss him lah lots n lots. Hope get to mit him again.
I think I might gain weight. Lagi2 hari raya, with relatives serving food for guests to eat. Kuih muih lagi. Plus gas drink. OH MY..
I'll make sure I dun overeat anf if I am, I'll not eat much the next day. That's my tactic..If the lauk serve are nice, apa nk uat eh..Hmm..it seems after Hari Raya la I control my diet..But i'll try my best to control. *close my eyes n nose*
One month of fasting has passed and today, Syawal month has come. Hearing the Hari Raya takbir sure make me sad. I think of my late grandma who can't be with her family this Hari Raya. She'll always in my prayers. *sob sob*
My 1st cry was when I seek forgiveness thru the phone with my loving darling just now at 12 midnight. I have done a lot of hurtful things to him. I cried when I think those things that is sure make him really hurt. I'm really2 sorry syg..
So here, Fatimah frm my bottom of my heart, sincerely, would like to say sorry of all my wrongdoings that has hurt not only him but anyone out there and hope u able to forgive me.
Wish all Muslims Slamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
And not forgetting my friends, Maaf zahir dan batin.
Have a great Hari Raya days. Enjoy..
Opened my school email and received email about F1. It was sent to all SOH (Sch of Hospitality) students. They want volunteers. The job is to serve people food and drink in high class hotel for F1 media event, and another one is to ensure there is adequate amount of food and refreshments at F1 team chalets.
Seems exciting huh..Got paid somemore. But too bad it's during Hari Raya. And the drink serve there will be alcohol. So I'm sure my dad will not allow if I ask him.
I didn't get to help in F1 event. Few months ago, I went to interview at STB, I guess I didn't qualify as I didn't receive any email from them. I thought of trying to gain experience especially when the event is big.
Oh well, maybe there's a reason behind all this.
Went to Bukit Gombak with my dad and sis. He bought side dishes to eat with rice later on. Also he bought the dishes for to eat with Lontong such as sambal udang, seronding, rendang-the usual dishes served during Hari Raya.
While walking, I saw a lot of Hari Raya clothes. It is quite tempting to see the one that I like. But I prefer at bazaar Geylang. Well next year then as this year we didn't buy any clothes. Wait for me k, nice baju Raya. My eyes are set at modern baju kebaya.
While I was there, I saw 1..2..3, 4 and 5 male Muslim person not fasting..Pakcik and 4 mats. 3 of them were eating in the coffeeshop and 2 mats smoking. They seem to be proud while smoking in front of crowds, as if they feel nothing towards this holy month. Today last day of the fasting month, at least last day try to fast la..Haizz..
Niwaes, I feel that my dad has spent quite a lot this month. Not included duit raya to give to children when come visiting house to house.
Love from me to you each lovely gals. ;) Miss u all..
Feeling wanted to edit our photo and put as background in my laptop. And here it is..Maybe I try to see other photos that I want to edit too.
My worry is over.
My tummy hurts a lot when I woke up. No wonder..You know I know..
He has started working at his new workplace on last Monday.
Ouch, it really hurts..I just want to lay down..
I have been crying a lot lately. During prayer and at night on my bed when I give it a thought deeply. When I hear the opinion from the other party, I think back-am I being selfish? Should I let go in the first place? But...I'm not that strong enough to face all that. I live in fear since that day, and always think about it. How I really wish I could turn back time..how I wish I can..I'm the only one to blame, yup it's me..One word-regret, that's all I wan to say.
Oh well, my dad has said "No Hari Raya clothes this year." It's ok then. I know he's facing financial tight. Next Hari Raya then..
alah...i didn't get to carry the baby..not even get to touch him..he's sound asleep. I wan to feel his cheek but nobody start to touch him so I'm shy to make the 1st move.I break fast with him, his mum n dad, his sis n bro-in-law at the hospital foodcourt. I ate chicken rice and share with them Indian rojak. Wow, I'm so full..Alhamdulilah, rezeki lebih. Tks to him n his mum. heee... The above photo is credit to him. He helped me to take the pic at the last minute when the visiting hours was over. Hmm..nt a bad photographer eh took the baby pic with the mum..
I would like to wish his sister-in-law congrats for giving birth a son yesterday. Today in the afternoon, I'm going to visit her wif him. He said I can carry the baby. Ok, I'm so looking forward to see the cute little face of him. He said the baby is very cute, small n his cheek is very soft.
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Phew! quite troublesome huh if change new blog skin. nw everytink ok bt only the playlist, y can't I hear the sound? N i dunno hw to put twitter inside my blog.
My stomach growling n i'm tinking abt food..hmm..wat to eat? maggi? maybe
OK! Done, nw I hear the sound, I dunno y, I try another song n it works. I disconnect the net n restart windows n try again.
Yeah, there's curry puff, a BIG one. My dad juz came back frm werk n he bought curry puff n Roti Boyan. Yum yum..I love the food! I tink he received his salary. I like fasting mth as I get to eat nice food especially wen my dad bring food home n wen I eat outside..The tempting is great. haha.. fikir gitu pulak fatimah ni..niat dh salah. haha.
K gtg, Slamat berbuka every1
Yesterday I went to break fast with him. Went to kembangan to mit him there n played computer game along wif him. Then break fast at the nearest coffeeshop. I ate prata while he ate fried rice. I wanted to eat fried rice coz it's my fav bt I'm afraid I'm too full. By eating juz 2 prata was full enough for me. I tasted his fried rice n it was super nice.
Then we headed to Geylang by bus. It was our 1st time going Geylang together. Ya, I guess I agree with him, the environment this yr compared to the past yrs was diff. Nt semeriah mcm dulu. I rmbr wen I went to Geylang wif my family past few yrs, the road was jammed wif ppl jaywalking. N there were a lot of vehicles parking at the side of the road. Yesterday although on weekend, it looked diff. Bt its gd la tk sesak sgt, it's easier for me to walk thru. And as always there were a lot of mats n minahs.
After scan thru the foods n baju kurung here n there, we went to Tanjong Pagar. He wan to checked his werkplace. Btw he'll nt b werking there anymore as the store closed already permanently. He'll b werking ard town area frm nw on.
Then off we went home carrying a lot of toys frm 7-11. Half I brought hm for my bro n half of it, he brought hm. It was quite heavy wen I carry the 2 plastic bags. Tk glamour langsung, mcm aru gi pasar je. Haha! He la told me to carry for a while coz he wanted to pull up his pants. N it was juz an excuse for him to escape frm carrying them. Tk gentleman langsung. Hmmph! Bt he carry jgk in the end bt nt 2 of them, I carry 1 of them n he carry another 1.
Oh ya, he gave me a love shape container with a nice smell inside. I'm touched. I kept smelling it coz it has a nice smell. N n n u noe wat, he also gave me a Panadol ActiFast coz he noes i get frequent migrain. Lagi I feel touched. Tks syg...I love u! n i'll always b..
Just now I dreamt of my 4 beloved friends. I think I miss them so much till it came into my dream. In my dream, I hug each of them very tightly, for Azimah as usual I like to joke with her, I want to kiss her cheek but she avoided with her facial expression. Haha, I really miss those moments where we all joke ard.
I MISS U ALL VERYYYYY MUCH!! AZIMAH, FARIDAH, ATIKAH, SAZA..*BIGGGG HUGS*
Now as usual, my usual routine, watch Naruto...Wee...He is surprised I have come to dat far by watching until episode 50 already. Haha, less than a week n I hv come dat far. Each day, I sacrifice both my eyes by watching Naruto. I really anxious to know how the story goes. It is not just a cartoon, there's motivation too - Not to give up, really working hard to achieve dat dream of urs.
Without wasting time, here I go! Farewell everyone!
When I first hear this song(U belong to me-Taylor Swift), I like the lyrics and the tune of the song. It is really nice.. It was abt a gal who admire diz sum1 bt he has a gf n his gf was hot unlike her. N diz guy shld b go for hot gal n she thinks she didn't hv the chance to get him. Bt in the end, she is beautiful wif her make up n her hair n dress. Wow!
Today break fast, I cooked jemput2 ikan bilis. My mum wanted me to cook fried noodle but I dun want coz I wanted to cook jemput2. My sis wanted to eat fried noodle but I said if I cooked jemput2, n cooked fried noodle, i'm afraid there's nt enough time as dat time was abt 6pm already.
So my mum told my sis to cook fried noodle n she asked me for help. So while I cooked jemput2, I guide her the steps to cook noodle. It's like a sis to sis activity. Diz time no guidance frm my parents. Only us. Guess what, the results was satisfactory. The fried noodle was nice. Thanks to me. Hehe..Well done Fatimah.
Nw i'm going to watch Naruto at youtube. I'm addicted to it already. There's a lot of episode to watch. So bye2 eveyone.
Oh ya, b4 I leave, i want to wish my beloved friend...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZIMAH!! Love u!
