I've come to grips with life n realize diz is going too far

2010-11-28T23:35:00.003+08:00

True enough you make me fall in love with you because of your personality. ;)

2010-11-28T23:24:00.000+08:00

2010-10-24T23:06:00.004+08:00

I feel like pouring all my feelings in here. I know this is personal but this feeling has been inside me for quite some time and I need a diary to vent what I'm feeling. I realise I still have a blog and here I am.

I always have this feeling that I really hate that I cannot avoid which is feeling insecure about MYSELF. I have try to find a reason on why I feeling this way for quite some time. I have think about it every night.

In the end, I know why. Especially when I'm with him. It's because when I saw other hot girls, it makes me feel not confident of myself. They are the attention of many guys. And when he looked at these girls, it really make me feel insecure although he said many times he only love me.

I once asked him what's in his mind when he looked at girls, he said he compare me and them. In the 1st place why he wants to compare me with them???? Why is there a need for comparison??

It really make me feel sad. I want him to ACCEPT me for who I am, not changing me to become like other girls. Just like the song by Bruno Mars, Just The Way You Are. I really wish he understands...

Am I not beautiful to him anymore? And I feel his expectation on me has become higher.

Come on, this looks are only temporarily given by God. I try to dress and doll myself for him, not anyone else. That's not enough?

I really hope this feeling will ends...I never felt like this before. Maybe because he keeps telling me I'm fat and that makes me feel more insecure.

He thought my definition of insecure is I afraid he goes to other girl but I realise after a long thought, thats not my definition. It about myself NOT him.

Please accept me for who I am if you really love me.

2010-10-10T18:55:00.004+08:00

School going to start this Tuesday. The day I have to wear formal. :/
As usual RP always start on odd day, Tuesday instead of Monday. I've seen the modules and who will be my classmate. And ya, there are some friends I knew.

6 more months and I'll be in 3rd year. Can't wait for school to finish. I hope my attachment will be last of 6 months before I graduate so I no need to come to school anymore after that.

Will be going to Pulau Ubin camp in March next year for 2D1N. My friend that has gone said it was very tiring but worth it. So will be looking forward for that. I have never been there before.

About my results, hmm..I glad that it has improved by 0.1 but still I need to work hard if I want my GPA to go up. Tough? Not sure how my next sem modules will be like especially Macroeconomics..

Had finally meet my ITE friends and catch movie together. Eat Pray Love was a good movie, it has good storyline. Best movie to watch with your girlfriends.

2010-09-05T02:32:00.005+08:00

One month plus have not been updating my blog. Lazy ar..Now I have spending my time more on Facebook playing games and seeing people pictures.

So anything photos I took, I usually upload them in FB instead of here. Also anything in my mind, I express them in Twitter or FB.

Wondering how's my life now?

Just a normal life with same daily routine. During the YOG period, I worked in banquet in Ritz Carlton hotel. At the same time, attending dance practice, breaking fast with family and dear fiance.

Everytime I woke up, 1st thing I do is open my laptop and FB-ing. Arguing with fiance is a normal thing between couple. As long as 1 of us give in and say sorry sincerely, it'll be ok.

Went out with fiance going Geylang and Night Safari. Ate at Secret Recipe. Its great spending time with him. The best part was when we joke around. We have the same thinking entertaining each other's jokes. Maybe that's why we can get along well.

Since its school holiday, I have been sleeping late every night. What do I do? Not studying but watching anime and movies online as usual. Hehe. I know this break, we should be studying but I'm the type who study last minute.

Even just now, I only study for a few hours. After a while I cannot absorb what I study in my mind, I straight away open my internet and surf.

Its Microeconomics, the module that I really weak at and feel like giving up. The test starts on this coming Monday. Hari Raya is around the corner too, and preparation for it is not done yet especially spring cleaning my house.

Having tests and Hari Raya at the same time are really wrong timing.

Been thinking of buying lenses but my money has spent on paying for dentist visit last Thursday. :(

To finish this off, I would like to wish all Muslim Selamat Hari Raya in advance. And to those whose test is around the corner, good luck! Take care peeps.

2010-07-26T06:03:00.002+08:00

Participated in the Samsung Human Torch event at Clarke Quay last Friday 23 July. Basically what we have to do there were to form a big torch at the open field. There were 2010 students and the ligthing started at 2010 hours.

There were blue, yellow and orange colour T-shirt. I was in orange t-shirt which means I'm part of the fire.

The mini torch that were given are cute. I gave it to my brother and he kept playing with the light.

Today my class has started to sell Adidas items. So I think I'll not bringing my laptop because today is only doing sales.

2010-07-21T22:35:00.003+08:00

Just came back home from dance practice at school. Body aching all over. I was honoured for being chosen to dance in front of a painting interpret what the painting means by movement. Besides than me, there are 3 other dancers who were chosen. There are 4 paintings, 4 of us dance in front of each painting respectively.

We'll be dancing in front of public, 1 person to 1200 people. Wow! Ok, I'll be very nervous. And yup, we have to work very closely with teacher so the stress is there because teacher will push us to do the steps correctly. Oh no.

Dharma(our malay dance group name) have to prepare for the next performance which will be in October. It is called Muse, it opens to all dance IG(interest group) in RP.

I should have join Malay Dance in my year 1 rather than Modern Dance. I'll be performing a lot of dances if I join in year 1. I realise that I fit more to Malay Dance.

So I have to give FULL commitment in dance since they are strict in attendance.

I'm Back!

2010-07-18T18:34:00.009+08:00

Didn't update for nearly one month now. Been very busy and also getting lazier to blog. Also been not tumblr-ing and not watching Bleach for quite a while. Forcing myself to blog today.

NDP so far has been a great experience for me. At first, its kind of boring but as the time pass by especially at the Padang, I feel we NDP motivators seem like a one big family. The bonding is there in my group. I didn't feel left out.

THere are a lot of photos taken by my friends and the photos are all in Facebook.

My life so far as usual there are ups and downs. Been thinking, stressing, worrying, laughing, crying, etc.

My family attended NDP show yesterday as my sis and I got free tickets. It was their first time and glad they enjoyed the show especially my brother. He loves to watch the jet flying, the army tanks and firework.

It's been a week we didn't meet. Really miss him a lots.

Less than a month left now unitl fasting month. How fast the time flies. Haven't repay the last year fasting month that I miss. Maybe tmrw.

VERY TIRING

2010-06-20T17:20:00.006+08:00

Fininished at 9pm for NDP training yesterday. It was full day rehearsal. Get to see some of the shows-parachute flying and fireworks too.

Yesterday training was a bit messy, I hope it'll not be like that on the actual day. That's why we have to come down for training every week. Saw the NDP costume and it was like a pyjamas, very baggy. It'll sure be hot. Just training without the costume, I perspire a lot, apa lagi if I wear that costume. I think I'll be soak like water.

We had pizza for lunch and army food for dinner. The army food was not nice. I think I'll getting sick of chicken. Food consists of chicken. There were free Old Chang Kee too.

Ballon sculpting early in the afternoon, and rehearsal late in the afternoon till at night. Till now, I still not good at balloon sculpting. I was just looking the others making the different shapes. Why is it? Because I can't overcome my fear when balloon bursting. I was impressed seeing different shapes that the others came out with.

Went home together with hubby and drop by Mc'Donald to grab a bite. I was very very thirsty.

On Friday, 18 of June: Went to hubby's house to celebrate his niece, Seri's birthday.
Happy birthday, Seri!

Last Monday, went to watch Karate Kid with hubby and it was awesome! Jackie Chan never fail to keep me entertain.

2010-06-13T20:44:00.003+08:00

2010-06-11T03:03:00.006+08:00

School going to reopen soon and that means test is coming. One test that I haven't take yet which is HTM. 6 problems need to learn and not even one I touch for this 2 weeks of holiday.

Where is my enthusiasm to study very hard? Gone! Holiday mood already.

I'm sure when school reopens, there'll be a lot of things to complete- sales proposal, do resume to prepare for attachment, tests, etc. IG too since I join one. Speaking of which, this afternoon there's training in school.

Btw last Tuesday, I went with my family to East Coast park spending time together. Finally..after long time didn't go out for outing together. Having fun. Lunch at Eastpoint, cycling at ECP, and visit dad's 'abang angkat' which we regard him as 'atuk' at Marine Parade.

At least my holiday was well spent. :)

WOW!

2010-06-01T20:43:00.004+08:00

A bit lost on my way there. Very high class, that's is what I have to say about Conrad Hotel. Even the toilet I went into does not seem like toilet. There's a chair too inside. I think the other 5 stars hotel has seat too.

But too bad, as I wanted to take photos, my hp memory has no space although I have deleted some photos and even songs. This Samsung hp memory is so small. So I can't show you how the toilets looks like. But trust me it is soooooo nice, you will mistaken it as a room.

My friend will be serving the VIP at Istana this Sat. Wow! Whereas for me, I serve secondary students under Conrad. The students will be having their dining etiquette in school so my job is to serve them foods. My attire will be very formal(hotel look) although just serve the sec students in their school.

I thought I'm going to serve at hotel. But it's ok as long as I get paid and also gain experience.

Extra info: As soon as I step into Conrad lift alone, I nearly jump for joy and smile saying wow as it was my first time step into such a high class hotel and be a part of Conrad. :D

Update!

2010-05-29T22:09:00.003+08:00

Decided to write something in this blog. Just a short one. As usual every Saturday is NDP training at ITE SImei. After that, hubby, his friend, sis and myself went to Expo.

Hubby wanted to see games there. He bought Spawn toys at $20(U.P.$35) It is consider very cheap compared to shopping centre which costs around $70. That is his childhood toys. He has set his eyes on Spawn but didn't get to buy it as it was expensive.

And today he managed to buy it. He loves to put them for display. He keep it for our future house.

Before rushing to his work, we grab a bite at Burger King.(without sis, she went home first) Then we took cab to his workplace which is at town area(his friend went home by train). From there, we split up and I took bus straight home.

His treat!

2010-05-18T08:59:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, hubby fetched me from school. And he brought me to Breeks and we have our late lunch/early dinner there. The bill was unexpected expensive. However, he said that'll be his treat for my advance birthday. I think that'll the most expensive lunch/dinner he spent for me so far.

Thank you for the unexpected treat!

Recently he has fetched me everyday after school. I'M LOVING IT!

Teck Whye Pri Sch

2010-05-09T16:16:00.007+08:00

That was how I looked like when I was in primary school. Can't remember how old. But that was me! Try to find me in the class photo. Hehe.

Get this pictures from my primary school friend's Facebook. She added me. And that is where I add some of the other friends in my school. They add me too! I even add one of my form teacher.

Miss them and the memories too. I'm touched that there are some that remember me. Haha.

Happy's Mother Day

2010-05-09T13:51:00.003+08:00

Happy Mother's Day to my mum and to all mothers and mothers-to-be too.

Yesterday, I went for NDP training at ITE Simei. We were divided by groups and play games to mingle around with new friends. My sister and I in different group.

I manage to make some new friends. :) Luckily they are nice and friendly people.

I have to withdraw from YOG because I can't commit to it as for sure, the training days will be clash with NDP. Last minute change. Many people asked me why don't I join YOG because its once in a lifetime event.

Haizz..please no more asking. I try to think positive for joining NDP so I'll not feel bad leaving YOG. As NDP motivator, I get to learn balloon sculpting and make it for the audiences. Also not forgetting, get to see NDP live, no tickets needed.

Wohoo..I'm sure it'll be a fun and memorable experience.

This is my first time participating in NDP. I heard there's no dance this year.

But the only part that make me complaining is why there's no transport from school to ITE Simei and vice-versa?? Waste my ez-link card fare. There's only one-way transport yesterday but starting from next week training, we have to go there by our own.

Also as yesterday is only a briefing, why not having it in school instead of going all the way to Simei?? They think all of us stay in the east?? Same goes for balloon sculpting.

All of us, the volunteers and most of the mentors are from RP so why not having in school instead?

Tiring but great day

2010-05-02T21:23:00.006+08:00

Mum woke me up yesterday telling me that hubby's mum invited me and my sister to go to Sentosa with them. Seeing my sister was sound asleep, I don't want to disturb her.

Hubby's brother-in-law fetched me by mini bus. Then he dropped hubby and I at McDonald to buy foods while waiting for him to take the rest of the family from home.

After taking them and us, we headed to Teban Gardens to fetch Danish, hubby's brother son.(pic: in blue colour shirt) He's good in English and his eyelid is longer than mine. Same as my brother. How jealous I am.

From there, off we went to Sentosa. I became a photographer for the day taking a lot of pictures there. Well I guess you guys can judge from the pictures above. Let it tells you the stories ya.

Actually we don't know what's our plan. Just relax one corner. The weather was hot. Hubby wanted to bring me to Universal Studio but the tickets are sold out. Poor us looking US through the entrance gate watching the people inside.

Hubby and I just went for a walk by the beach and inside the Resorts World. His family plan to just stay in the bus but when we came back, they were not in the bus. It was 7pm. So we just sitting around waiting.

Hubby used ghost radar from his Iphone. And we saw red, blue and yellow dots. Red dot means that the ghost presence is extremely strong. I was scared so I walked off far away from that place. It was maghrib, thats why.

We waited for around 1 hour, until hubby suggested to sit by the beach. It was quite romantic although there were no stars. We only get to sit there for a while until hubby received a call from his brother-in-law saying that he was at the bus already.

His brother-in-law fetched the others at Imbiah station. Before we went home, we went to eat first at West Coast. This includes hubby's brother and his wife which were not following us to Sentosa.

I'm having headache that time and I think it was because I haven't eaten my lunch yet. I just had a burger shared with hubby for lunch. So I ate fried rice for my late dinner.

My parents called me with a serious tone as it was 10pm already and I didn't call them. Ya, I know it's my fault. Went home accompanied by hubby to my house.

After washed up, I went to bed. Wanted to watch 'Susuk', the Malay horror movie at Suria, but I was too tired so I prefer sleeping.

PS. The view at Sentosa was nice right hubby?

30 APR, FRI

2010-05-02T21:03:00.002+08:00

Went to meet hubby, had a heart to heart talk that day. Went to Starbucks at Bukit Panjang Plaza then off we went to Lot 1. Saw a long queue outside Popular and saw Russell Lee, the author for the True S'pore Ghost stories.

Since hubby loves to read his book, he bought the new edition, the 20th and queue for his autograph. We waited for around 30 minutes for our turn. The queue was very long.

Wonder how he looks like behind that face.

Bzzzz like a bee

2010-04-25T17:08:00.004+08:00

Busy busy busy since schooling has started, that's why I haven't been updating my blog for some time. Reached home, did my RJ then went to sleep so the day after will wake up feeling fresh. Didn't spend that much time with hubby since each of us are busy.

It has been 1 week 2 days schooling and I feel the days pass by fast.

Yesterday, went to YOG training in school. We were brief about service excellence and mingle around with new friends.

There will be uniforms(t-shirt and pants) provided to wear during the YOG and the supplier is from Crocodile. Wow, it should be expensive, I think. But luckily we volunteers no need to pay. Haven't seen the uniforms yet. Hope the design is nice.

We have to send our measurements online. But I worried it will be too small or big for me especially the pants.

I also volunteer for National Day with my sis but I afraid the training will clash with YOG as they both started in August. I will see how it goes first.

Anyways, my dad has bought for my sis a set of cleanser, toner, etc for her pimples and it costs $102. Sooo the expensive. Basically they went shopping just now. My dad also bought her 3 t-shirts and internet broadband. My dad upgrade a new handphone, Sony W995 for himself. The camera is 8.1 megapixel.

What about me? I want something too. :((
Wait, am I being jealous?

Screw up

2010-04-17T22:16:00.005+08:00

School.......So far the facilitators are not bad for the past two days. I wonder how my grade will be. My new classmate is ok too. Saw some familiar faces. I have not in the same group with all of them and don't know some of their names yet, but I see they are nice people, I hope so.

And also for these two days, I'm screw up my presentation. Its hard for me to explain my slides although it's easy. Just because I took a long time to think what to say. I hate it!

I think it's because after a long holiday, my brain is still not in school. I didn't concentrate much in class. I even didn't realise that I have to click next slide for the team who were presenting until there's someone who call out my name, then I realised. 'Khayal', that's the name.

But I didn't think of anything, my brain was blank, I feel like I'm not there in class.

Anyways, So far looks like my sister's first day in school was ok. She complains a lot as usual, always have comments. Haven't go for lunch with her yet.

Have been going to school and going home with hubby the past two days. It really made my days and gave me 'semangat' to go to school for the day.

He'll go to reservist this Monday so that's why we want to spend time together before he goes for 2 weeks.

I'm still feeling tired although I slept already.

14th April

2010-04-17T22:04:00.002+08:00

I forgot to wish here through my blog on the 14th but I have wished my sister through text on her birthday. Since I wish my dad's birthday in my blog, I decided to put here for my sister too.

My brother's birthday will be coming too on the 21th. There are 3 April babies in my family.

New Timetable for next semester

2010-04-13T17:35:00.002+08:00

The modules look difficult. I hope its going to be easy to understand.

2010-04-13T02:52:00.003+08:00

Year 2 school rules are strict. If didn't wear proper attire, grades will be affected, can't sit for tests, no reference letters from school for job applications, etc.

Have to start wearing formal attire to school for two of my modules each week. But I only have a few formal clothes. Need to buy extra if only my dad give me money.
I seldom ask him for money although I have not enough money. I don't know why, I don't want to stress my dad thinking about money always. I sympathize him.

For the rest of the modules, I can wear normally just that I can't wear slippers anymore.

Happy Birthday!!!

2010-04-11T17:18:00.003+08:00

Dad,
Every year, your birthday reminds me
how grateful I am that you are my father.
With all that’s going on in the world today,
I’m thankful I get to watch you,
to look up to you, being an example of a good man.
What a privilege it is to observe your strength,
your competence, and your kindness.
I am so blessed to be under your wing,
your protection, your care,
learning important life lessons from you.
If all fathers were like you,
the world would be a very different
and much better place.
Happy Birthday, Dad,
from your admiring daughter.

2010-04-10T03:32:00.004+08:00

Oh My Oh My, just get to know that timetable for new semester has come out. I thought it's on next Tuesday.

I have 3 classes-both at E4 and E5. I have to walk even futher to my class. "._.
And there's one name that I familiar with from Semester 2 classmate. Why must it be in 3 different classes when we all took the same course?

Nervous? Excited? I think my answer will be both. Please introduce me with a nice classmate.

Sis's orientation will be on this coming Monday. Hope she adapt herself with the school fast and everything go smoothly ya. All the best :)

2010-04-06T19:49:00.003+08:00

In around 2 weeks time, hubby will go for his reservist for 2 weeks. He wants me to keep his Iphone for him. I understand why. It's better be safe than sorry.

In exchange I will lend him my Sony hp so we can contact with each other. He also wants me to help him transfer games to his Iphone. Luckily he's the one that I love, if a stranger, I don't even bother to help because it sure takes a lot of my time trying to figure out this and that. I don't even use Iphone so I have to know a bit so I can help hubby.

Hope he appreciates my effort. "Peluh2 tau buat keje ni" Hees..

2010-04-05T22:02:00.002+08:00

Went for my sis's enrolment at RP. I think we took around 5 hours at RP. My legs are tired of all the standing and walking here and there. There's not so many people that came compared to my last time enrolment.

All have settled, only left with her laptop which will be collected at RP and go for configuration. She took Acer brand too.

As soon as my mum step in RP, she's with her camera keep taking pictures here and there even though we were busy settling something until my sis and myself feel tired.

I don't know how many photos she took. Guess she's excited too huh.

2010-04-03T23:34:00.005+08:00

Upgrade a new handphone. At first, my dad only upgrade my sis's hp. Then he upgrade mine too although I said no need. Both of us have the same model- Samsung touchscreen but different colour. Mine is white.

Of course I'm excited using a new phone. In fact I'm exploring it now although I feel tired now.

My number is under my sis's name while my sis's new num is under my name. Complicated huh? Well, its a long story.

After went out with my dad and sis, I met hubby. He's also wants to buy hp- Iphone.

Then train down to hubby's house for family gathering as it was his dad's birthday. We had steamboat and cake.

It's great to see everyone happy. Today rezeki my sis, hubby and myself. Alhamdulilah. Thanks God for making today a happy day for us.

Its true there's a reason behind that happen. About Singtel doesn't approve hubby's name to get a Iphone. Hubby had just lost his Sony hp ystd in the taxi. Luckily that time he haven't had the Iphone, if not...menangis tk berlagu.

Now, I have told hubby many times to take care of his new hp. I'm worried for him because this was his 2 times he lost his hp in the taxi. Abeh both the taxi driver/passenger tak jujur pulak tu. Haizz..

2010-04-01T15:14:00.002+08:00

My sister gets into Republic Poly! Its her 1st choice Lifestyle, Wellness & Spa Management. I'm jealous you know because I also want that new course. But it's ok.

Btw happy for her. *TIGHT HUGS* See you in school. :D

2010-03-30T00:57:00.005+08:00

My sister's friend is finding someone to work in her company, so I went with her as my sister can't go out.

The company name is Lfi at Aljunied. I just went for the tour because it took around 2 hours. Since hubby was waiting for me already, I told my sis's friend that I go for the interview on another day.

It was raining heavily till at night.

Hubby wanted to buy a Iphone but like he said, perhaps its not his day, something hinders his plan to get Iphone. Its about Singtel plan thingy which cannot approve his name. But I think it has to take a few days to process. Went to CWP then Lot 1 by taxi.

On the other hand, he bought for me foundation that I wanted since few weeks ago from Body Shop. Also bought moisturizer. Since there are promotion buy 2 get 1 free, I grab the face mist for setting of make-up. That was the 1st time I bought something from there. So far I just step in and look at the products. Maklumlah it was way over my budget.

I can see that he really sad and pissed off he didn't get what he wanted. All the way he puts a sour face. I didn't know what to do to cheer him up. I wish I can do something.

I hope he gets what he wanted. Like my sis said today not his day, then maybe next day is my turn bad day. Ya..everyone has bad and good days.

Btw, thanks bi for buying the make-up things.

2010-03-25T21:16:00.004+08:00

My GPA still maintain the same as last semester which was not good enough for me. Need to improve so I'll able to graduate by end of year 3.

My mum don't know yet that my results are out. She keeps pestering me. When she asked the other day, I said haven't released yet. Confirm she'll give me a earful after knowing how my results are. I have to prepare for it. She always has high expectations. This stress me out.

I target to get mostly Bs next semester provided if the facilitators are not strict to give Cs always. Need to do a good RJ and don't miss any of the RJ questions so my grade will not be affected. Also that depends if I am not sleeping as I tend to sleep if I am very tired.

Still thinking whether to join IG because I want a good portfolio. But confirm I'll be very tired. If tired tend not to do RJ. So still considering.

I have been wanting to buck up the 2nd semester but I realise my performance was still the same. Aiyo, how to improve like this, always slacking.

I also plan not to be absent too many times so my overall grade will be good, this includes my test grades.

I hope my facilitators I meet will be lineant and get a good classmate like my 1st year. I enjoy being in class W46J and E37J.

One more week to my sister's poly results. Hope she qualifies in.

2010-03-23T19:35:00.003+08:00

Results are out. And I am not sure myself whether to be happy or sad. I want Bs and Cs in the modules so it might improve my overall GPA. I guess my dream came true.

I'm waiting how my GPA will be like. Really really hope it's above 2. Pray hard.

2010-03-21T23:35:00.004+08:00

Taken from another person's blog.

Accompanied Azimah to buy some clothes. I really miss her. Luckily I have the chance to go out today.

At first we went to Queenstown. There are a lot of shoes that make me go wild especially the pump shoes. Nice & pretty! The jeans and clothes too. My eyes glued to some of the clothes that I would love to have.

Then we ate new hot and spicy shaker fries(nice!) at McDonald to fill our stomach first before we headed to City Hall. Went window shopping at Marina and she bought a jeans(again) at Peninsula. Haha..

There, I met hubby. Three of us went to Sakura to have our late lunch. But he don't want to eat even though I wanted to feed him. :(

From there, Azimah and I gave each other a hug before we separate our way. *sob sob*
Thanks for the great day! And don't be angry/sad eh if we didn't have the chance to take pictures. We can actually but you don't be shy la.
PS. ngah try seluar ke tu? heheh

And me and hubby went to watch movie at Wooodlands. And took taxi home.

PS. Hubby, next time tell me k, please don't just keep quiet. I'm your fiancee already not bf gf anymore--that's what you always say to me if I keep things from you. So pls share with me.

2010-03-20T19:57:00.003+08:00

I kept thinking of how my results will be until I dreamt about it.

I dreamt my exam results has been released. And I get bad results, which I'm scared of. I get Cs and Ds which I wish I don't have. Because of that, my GPA also affected. I'm worried I have to retain.

But I really hope that dream is not true. My past results are not so good. So I wish for the best.

And my sis just shared with me what she dreamt. She dreamt she was being possessed and pass to me and my mum. Ooo...

By the way, last Tuesday, on my way going home, I saw a dead bird. Suddenly it reminded me when I saw a dead pigeon last year. Few days after that, I received a news that my late grandma has passed away.

I don't know if it is coincidence. But when I saw the dead bird last week, I'm scared/worried if something will happen.

I hope nothing happens..

2010-03-17T23:28:00.004+08:00

INTERESTING FACTS ABOUT GUYS:

1) Guys don't understand what girls want. They need girls to tell them directly.
Hints seldom work.

2) "Are you doing something?" and "Have you eaten?" are two questions guys start
conversations with to stop stammering. (true!)

3) Guys don't like it when girls overreact.

4) Guys can be more talkative than girls, especially if the topic is about girls or
games. (very true esp wen come to games)

5) Guys usually have more problems in their lives than girls think. Guys just choose
to keep it to themselves.

6) Guys like to play rough with their guy friends but will gentle if they are with
their girlfriends. (duh!)

7) A guy will usually save money just to buy a girl some flowers.

8) Guys can think too much sometimes. One trivial thing a girl does, even if she
doesn't notice, can set a guy thinking for hours, trying to figure out what it
meant.

IF SHE SAYS:

a)I need.
b)I need another five minutes to get ready.
c)We need to talk.
d)I'm not upset.
e)Nothing...
f)Are you listening to me!?!
g)Do I look fat?
h)Don't get me anything.
i)Do you love me?
j)It's your decision.
k)Sure...go ahead.
l)You have to learn to communicate.

SHE REALLY MEANS:

a) I want.
b) Give me another half an hour.
c) I need to complain.
d) Of course I'm upset.
e) Something is bothering me.
f) [Too late, you're dead.]
g) Tell me I'm beautiful.
h) I need to know that you love me enough to have taken notice of what I like
without me telling you.
i) I feel insecure and I need you to know that you value me.
j) The correct decision should be obvious by now.
k) I don't want you to.
l) Just agree with me.

For guys, if they said they are tired, they really means they are tired, etc.

WHAT GIRLS WANT GUYS TO KNOW:

1) Girls need to feel loved.
2) Girls can be emotional.
3) Girls want security.
4) She wants you to listen to her problems.
5) She wants to look attractive. She tends to get upset when he notices a
scantily-clad girl walk past.

WHAT GUYS WANT GIRLS TO KNOW:

1) Guys need respect.
2) Guys are insecure. (in terms of confidence, how they potray themselves)
3) Guys are visual.
4) Guys go after the "hot" girls. (attracted to good personalities, inner and outer
beauty & confidence)
5) Guys are all out for one thing.

2010-03-17T18:13:00.001+08:00

2010-03-17T16:55:00.005+08:00

So sad I can't go out with my besties today to Sentosa. My mum said I always go out, but it's not everyday. I went out in alternate days, usually one week in between.

Haven't seen them for a long time. I miss them. Of all the days I went out, not even one day I go out with them. Don't understand why my mum don't allow me to go out. She expects I sit at home all day? Feels like I have no life.

I'm worried for my exam results. I'm scared my mum will scold me and start to pin point him to cause me to have a poor results. I don't want this kind of pressure. She likes to pin point others and 'salahkan' them.

Even I being 'salahkan' for causing my sis problem. WTH!!

2010-03-16T21:37:00.005+08:00

Picture abv: Us with Rozita, the make-up specialist. The lights were quite dim so can't see the make-up that clear. But glad that my make-up is not too thick.

Make-up course -- that's what I'm waiting for after I received email that I have to attend. It was fun since I'm interested in make-up.

We, SOH students get to try on the make up that was provided by Body Shop. I learnt a lot on how to apply make-up. It was a fruitful session. It lasts for 4 hours. Before went home, they gave out door gift, make-up kit and small perfume. I enthusiastically answered the quiz because I wanted the perfume. Hehe.

After that, met hubby and watched Alice in Wonderland 3D at Woodlands.

His mum's & family have returned from KL ystd night and they bought for me long sleeve shirt and a keychain with my name written. Also scarf(tudung) for my mum.

I love the colour of my make-up, looked natural. Thanks to the make-up specialist. Too bad my hp is not with me so can't take lots of pictures.

Love the foundation, it is long lasting and it covers my pores which was what I really wanted. Even hubby said it.

So bi...erm... Can? *eyes blink2*

2010-03-11T23:26:00.003+08:00

Today hubby's mum went to KL with her family by airplane. I went to airport with hubby to see her mum at the airport. Then he and I went to eat at Popeye after a long time I haven't eat at there.

Wish them a safe journey. And enjoy their stay. They'll be at KL for 5 days. It is a celebration for his niece as she get into Poly. And it's RP, same as me. See you soon in RP. =)

For my sis, hope she gets into RP too so we can enjoy our time together.

2010-03-08T19:30:00.004+08:00

After 2 years of having long hair, finally I went for a simple haircut today. And this is my first haircut too after I rebond my hair. Also having long hair means a lot of hair fall.

I don't frequently go for a haircut because I afraid the cut is not as I expected to be - not nice. A good haircut is what everybody wants.

I went to Bukit Gombak at first thinking the salon there is still $6 but my trip there is wasted because there is no more promotion. It is $12 now.

Since it is not my budget, I went to my house area where there is a new salon which costs me $7.90.

Before that, I went to RP IT helpdesk as I can't open internet due to virus. The person took 1 hour+ to repair my laptop. Luckily there's a movie shown in the Agora Hall to kill my time. There are laptop roadshows today till Friday.

So yeah, my laptop can be use already. This long school holidays, I need a laptop to kill my time. Glad my baby is recovered.

"To Sis, don't touch my laptop again huh"

2010-03-07T15:40:00.005+08:00

I'm aware I have been neglecting my blog for quite a while. That's because I have no stories to post.

Anyways, I have created a Tumblr account(since I'm bored at home doing nthg).
And Tumblr is much much easier than blogger, no need to convert video, just a few seconds of waiting and it's posted in your blog alrd. Same goes for pictures, the pictures shown is in slideshow.

After a long thought, I will still keep this blog because there are some who don't have Tumblr. So with this blog, I have their link and still can read their blog.

Since I like to post pictures, I use Tumblr to post any pictures I like to share whereas for blogger, it is to write any stories that I want to share with you.

For those who want to follow me or view my Tumblr, you're most welcome--
http://happinessiswatiseek4.tumblr.com

Sorry for the long website address.

2010-03-01T18:18:00.004+08:00

Do you often drink Coke? If you are, you should watch this.

Glad that hubby don't want to drink Coke anymore. He's the type who loves and always drink Coke. When I told him, he seems like ignoring me but when he watched video about coke, then he realised that coke is acidic.

For myself, luckily I don't like gas drink, I seldom drink it. Mostly I drink plain water. It quench my thirst more than other drinks.

But when I'm outside with hubby, I drink Soya Bean, bandung, ice lemon tea..But I usually bring water bottle especially to school. That's why I don't buy drinks in school, save money. Hees..

2010-02-28T17:52:00.002+08:00

Something happened yesterday. My dad has to confiscate my sis and my phone. I just get my hp back and I still miss it. Don't know when I can get my hp back. Haizz...One after another..

2010-02-26T19:57:00.002+08:00

You gave me everything,
You gave my life a brand new start,
You are there to warm my soul,
You become the meaning of my life..

2010-02-26T17:51:00.007+08:00

Having fun at Sentosa turns out to be only a few hours of fun after only hubby found out his money in bank is less than what he expected. He suspected that there could be overcharge in one of the rides.

And we suspected the person at the Luge Skyride as she's the only one that didn't give receipt. And we forgot to ask for it because usually nothing like this happens. F*** the person! Now we have learnt a very valuable lesson. At the same time of having fun, we should be extra careful.

It's not like the overcharge is only a few bucks. The money can last a month!
Hubby just got his pay and he ends up being pissed off.

Money is really like water, it cannot be seen with our eyes, it slowly slip out from our hands. And without realising it, it's gone.

We supposed to watch the Songs of the Sea but we ended going home straight. Not so much of talking all the way home.

If only I chose shopping over Sentosa, this will not be happening. Entertainment only left us with fun but if shopping, we can see the things we bought and get to wear the things we bought.

Got a lecture from hubby and sis to make a right decision next time.
I have been keeping making the wrong decision, what's wrong with me?! Stop being so so fickle-minded.

If only I am firm enough..I'll not living my life with regrets..

I'm really2 sorry hubby. I have cause you so much trouble. You have sacrifice a lot for me. I bet there's no other guys will do like what you did to me. Thank you so much.

PS. U looked handsome ystd

Btw, collected my IC ystd after I lost it in school. I'm not going to bring it with me unless necessary. So IC, stay at home k.

2010-02-23T22:02:00.005+08:00

Today since there was 2nd round for YOG recruitment, I went for the briefing & interview in school. I chose information counter as my role since I wanted lesser interaction. I'm not so good in managing crowd and brief them on what to do. It's not like I have loud voice.

Went to clinic for injection. I thought it was H1N1 vaccine but my dad want seasonal flu vaccine. First plan was for my brother and I taking the injection first but my brother was having flu. The doctor advise not to inject and wait for my bro to recover first.

So it was my mum and myself went for the injection excluding my sister who are schooling. We always went to the usual clinic but there is no flu vaccine so we went to the clinic besides.

Didn't notice there is a clinic too besides. I was relieved when heard there is no flu vaccine because it means that I can escape from the jab. But my mum is the one who told my dad to try go to the clinic besides.

So I cannot escape..Sooner or later I have to take it jugak kan.

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My brother was advise by the doctor to lose some weight because due to his weight, he's easily prone to illness. The doctor said she can hear my brother breathing hard through her stethoscope.

My bro is cute when he's small but now becoming more cuter and rounder.(& more stubborn of coz)
I think you can't recognise thats him when he's small. The doc said he must reduce drinking milk. Is milk fattening? I thought it's part of growing up?

Btw, my whole upper arm is still feeling numb after the injection. I feel uncomfortable. Can't hold up my right arm for too long.

My body automatically move a few distant apart from my sis and bro to avoid being hit on my injection arm especially my naughty bro;always like to punch me.

2010-02-21T20:11:00.002+08:00

This is for my poly friend, Hidayu. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIDAYU. I wanted to send you through sms but my hp spoil. So I just wish you through here k.

Hope you have a great day today celebrating with your loved ones. May God bless you with happiness, murahkan rezeki and pink of health.

Love you!

2010-02-17T16:49:00.005+08:00

School holidays has started for my poly. So that means school holidays=sitting at home. BORING! These few days, I just use my laptop played game, surf net and watch Naruto. Laptop is like my best friend. I even eat with my laptop. =)

I have been RESTLESS these few days sitting at home. I'm finding work but so far no reply yet. My last went out was with hubby last Sunday watched Valentine's Day.

Haizz..you see I have no life. The part sitting at home I hate is must do housework. OH...Now I have to sweep the floor but using Magic Clean is easy and fast too so I don't mind.

My hp is now totally spoil- can't even press the menu button. I can't message anyone too or even pick up a call. I can't read the message that hubby sent to me. IRRITATING HP BUTTONS! The other old hp that my cousin gave is spoil too, it cannot charge.

I have to rely on the web sms to message hubby. But there's a limit, only 20 sms received per day.

:((

I have a very boring life right now..No school=no money=no plans=no life! Great! Just GREAT!

Can I have a cute cute kitten for companion?

2010-02-11T13:32:00.006+08:00

Credit: The pictures for the dishes and the restaurant itself were taken from web. Can't take pictures as my hp was spoil.

Met hubby yesterday at Woodlands after my Maths test. Both of us have difficulty in deciding where to go. Many suggestions I have but since we are sick, we drop the ideas. Hubby decided want to go Escape Theme Park but he said if we went early, it'll be great to avoid feeling rushing to go home.

At last we went to Dhoby Ghaut. I didn't know there is The new Cathay with a few minutes walk from MRT. Went to watch Avatar 3D movie since hubby wanted to watch it few weeks ago. He said his friend told him the 3D movie was nice, same goes for the person at the counter that sell tickets.

And yes, I agree, the movie was nice. Before I watched it, I thought it was boring. But I'm wrong. The 3D effects was very nice.

Before we waited at 3.15pm for the movie, we went to Indo Padang restaurant at basement. We chose the lunch set for 2-3 persons which cost $24.90++ nett.

The food was very nice especially the Soto Ayam (3rd pic above). The Ayam Bakar too. Different tasting from the normal Ayam Bakar. Hubby recommended me to drink the Teh Sarso. Yeah, the taste was different from the normal tea. Quite nice though.

Love the sambal(red & black). Eaten it with rice. At first I ate, didn't feel the spiciness, but with continuous eating it(red one), I can taste the spiciness. Both of us were very full. The portion for 2-3 persons is sure a lot to me. Didn't get to finish sayur lodeh(as we didn't eat terung>eggplant) and my fish.

The service was good, the persons there were very friendly. The ambience was nice too. The food that we ordered were prepared quite fast too. I ate first before my fish came. Can't wait again as I was hungry and the smell and look of the dishes in front of me were appetizing.

Next time if there's opportunity for me to eat there again, I will like to try the fried rice. Can hubby? Hehe..The fried rice that I saw the person besides me eating was different from the normal fried rice I ate. The Indonesia version. And I'm sure it is spicy.

After watched Avatar for 2hr+ and before we headed home, we went to play Life For Dead for a while. Reached home around 9pm. Didn't realise it was already late. Luckily, I have no test today. For a moment during that time, I forgot my struggleness when doing my Maths test.

Although both of us are sick, we still enjoyed our time together. Right bi?

2010-02-05T19:13:00.002+08:00

Didn't came to school today as I was sick. Having a fever, flu and slight cough.

Wanting to come to school as today will be my last day with my class. Will be in different class for tests. Didn't expect I'll be sick this morning when my mum woke me up for school.

WILL BE MISSING E37J. They are a good bunch of classmate. Glad to have them as my classmate. ALL THE BEST IN YOUR UTs! And to Hidayu too. =)

I hope I can do my test tomorrow. And hope I feeling better. Kind of worried for my tests. I want to score better. Quite feel demoralised seeing my past grades.

2010-02-04T21:06:00.003+08:00

Interesting part about today's Cognitive module was there's a question about there are secret messages in the songs when played backwards(backmasking). Some parts of the songs they heard are Satanic message. Above video is one of the example. I found many hidden messages in many songs in Youtube.

People who believe thought it relates to devil. People who believe associated 666, 9, 11, etc as Satanic.

Well, it's people beliefs. If like that let's talk backwards, it means that we are evil?

Today my group talked about this Illumanti thingy and that interests me. One of them search a lot of videos that shows hidden message. Lady Gaga's songs are one of them. Heard my friend said she often shows her hand on her eye, a symbol of 6. And the 'Rarara' words from Bad Romance is something like chanted words which may relate to Christian prayer. And my friend said that's why she heard her friend sing it as 'RaRaULaLaLa' instead of 'Rah-Rah-ah-ah Roma Roma-ma'.

I find Lady Gaga weird, with her weird outfit, weird video.
Creepy when listen to reverse songs.

2010-02-02T09:26:00.006+08:00

Hubby is sick so is everybody. Most people catch a flu already. Hope I am not falling sick too especially with my tests around the corner.

Didn't go to school ystd as I went to study Maths with Hidayu at Wlds library. Then went back to school attending Accounting workshop.

After that, went to Swensens with hubby. I ate pizza since I was still full while he ate the new Beef Stroganoff Baked Rice.
Saw my cousin working there and say hi. The pictures was in hubby's hp. My hp button is spoil so I have to use the old hp that cousin used to give me. :(

I don't know whether it can be repaired. I think I wait for my dad next pay.

Hubby was very fickle-minded ystd whether to buy 2nd hand PSP or not. And in the end, he bought it near his house. -.-

"You mean a lot to me….
And so does your Health and Happiness.
So here’s a wish to say…
Take good care of yourself!"

Get well soon hubby. And thanks for the treat. ;)

Feeling so so pressure and stress with tests coming. Haizz...I think I might flunk my tests especially Maths and Accounting. :(( ARGHH!!

Been stressing too much. I don't know what else to do.

2010-01-31T00:11:00.002+08:00

2010-01-28T21:10:00.002+08:00

Meet hubby again! Happy happy! He last minute called me when I'm in the bus otw home wanting me to accompany him to buy his laptop charger at Lot 1. Unfortunately, the person there cannot do anything so we went to Westmall. Luckily, hubby get what he wanted and the adapter they sell can switch on his laptop. Hubby was happy as his problem has been solved. He bought the twister ball for the laptop too.

Since he gets his pay, he went shopping. He bought perfume, Adidas deodorant, and Adidas backpack. Took a lot of time in the shop deciding which bags to buy. I understand he don't want to feel regret in the end after buying the one that he don't quite like. So really need to think hard and ask for opinions.

Since if we bought 2nd item, it'll be 20% off, I took a Adidas water bottle since I don't have a proper water bottle. Hubby get a Link card(membership) where he can get 10% off for every purchase in the chain stores. For his next pay, he decided to buy Adidas watch, and the following month will be Adidas shirt. He said he wants to collect Adidas items.

ADIDAS FREAK, that's what I called him. Even his gift shoes(hantaran) during our engagement was Adidas. Meet a loyal brand of Adidas - AZMI NOOR.

After all the walk here and walk there, we ate at Pastamania which hubby was really pissed off with the service the person provided. I think there is no customer service at Westmall.(maybe only the shops that we went, not sure about the rest)

Went home by taxi.

Btw, today's Cognitive module was VERY BORING. Nearly wanting to go partial as the class was discussing who want to go partial. Shoba didn't come so relief faci is taking over. Luckily it's only today she'll be teaching us. She's more worse than my previous faci, Nacha. I like Shoba's way of teaching. But she'll not be teaching my class again as next week, Nacha will be coming back from overseas.

2010-01-27T22:11:00.007+08:00

FUN! That's all I can say about today's outing with my dear fiance. Last minute plan. This morning on my way to school, I text him wanting to go to beach today. Thinking of going partial for my lesson today, but I'm doing fine throughout the lesson and don't want to get F grade so I drop my idea of going partial.

After school, met him at Woodlands and went to Sembawang park since it is the nearest beach compare to East Coast. But the beach there is dirty and spot many marine life dead at the side of the beach. There are fishes, crabs, prawn, squid.
The scenery is nice, the weather is very windy but only one part that spoil; the smell. (foul smell of the dead marine life) Fuh!

Ate at the side of the beach with the wind blowing. Hubby found an empty cardboard for us to sit along the beach. It was very windy throughout the time. Love it..not so sunny. Supposingly he suppose to bring chicken rice for me that he cooked but he forgot. So sad..Can't taste his cooking.

Saw a moon at 6.25pm. Wanting to stay to see the sunset but in the end, cannot see it so clearly. Before went home, I played swing for a while bcoz there's a kid waiting wanting to play. Feel excited when saw a swing at the playground. Hubby said I'm 22 yrs old not 12. He helped me pushed from behind during I play the swing. But everytime I want to play, there'll be kids. Before I come there, no kids around. Soon as I start swinging, kids came. Byk pulak tu.

Took a lot of pictures there. Laughed a lot too. Feeling really happy but only for today. Starting tmrw onwards maybe will be stress especially thinking of my tests that will be coming soon. That's why I thinking of wanting to calm myself today.

2010-01-24T21:48:00.003+08:00

I love playing swings although I'm going to be 22 this year. When I saw a empty swing, I quickly rush to sit on it. Haha, I know it's kinda of childish. Didn't sit on a swing for a long time since there's not a lot of swings in the playground nowadays.

When I sit on the swing getting swing with the wind blown on my face, I felt relaxed and wanted more but unfortunately, my dad called me to go home. And also I have to take turn with my brother. (sibuk je dia) Btw, he starts wearing his spec alrd.

Done with my poster for my business tomorrow. Left the photos of our dishes which is with my friend. Thanks to my sister for her help in drawing the potato picture for me. And her suggestions too. She likes a consultant to me giving me ideas.

In the end, I love the look of the poster. I hope my team members will not find it ugly.

Have to wear formal attire tmrw. Wear what I have in my wardrobe. I'll be wearing the heel shoes hubby gave to me.=) I want new business attire..especially skirt.

This is it, the final tradeshow. We have to show to public our business idea. Hope our booth goes smoothly. We are not going to sell our foods, only show our business plan.

2010-01-21T22:48:00.004+08:00

Can't remember when is my last update in blog. There are 3 different photos in 3 different days.

Start on Tuesday, went to meet hubby at Somerset to go home together. (He need to make up for not meeting me twice) The 2nd day, he slept in the toilet when actually we suppose to meet to take train together. No wonder he didn't pick up my call. 1st time heard ppl slept in toilet.

On Wednesday, stay in school till around 9pm to do project. Very tiring, didn't even do my RJ. New faci (Jovin) for Marketing. His teaching styles making me stress and feels there's so much to think about. He'll give us grade F if we partial. So unreasonable. Don't know what grade he'll give if didn't do RJ. Hope not E or F.

Today, meet my sister after school. Ate at Mc'Donalds. Thanks for the treat sis. As usual she has a lot to talk about.

Today's class, Cognitive was interesting and fun. It's about whether we believe in ghosts or not. No presentation but we did Talk Show where we pretend in the TV and the hosts interview us; non-believer & believer. And I'm in the non-believer side. Have to make up stories. Like this new faci(Shoba).

Meeting hubby tmrw, thought of not coming to school(as it's Maths-dun like)and meeting him but he's got meeting so I have to go to school as usual. I can't go partial too coz he'll finish in the afternoon.
:( He say he's off tmrw but he have to attend meeting. Haizz..Busy ppl..Always got last minute call from top authority.

2010-01-18T19:46:00.006+08:00

My sister agreed with me after telling her that my day today is bad. All did not goes smoothly as plan. That's why reached home feeling moody. Straight away played game to cool me off.

Suddenly have no appetite to eat leaving a lot of spaghetti wasted, spill my drink (luckily not hot water), having a very bad tummyache, reached home found out that my water bottle cap did not closed properly and spill on my laptop leaving my things inside my bag wet.

Wanted to go to Maths workshop after school but it's late already so I didn't went in.

Text sis if she reached home already thinking of going home together but ya..she reached home already. Text hubby wanted to go home together. By the time he replied me, I'm inside the bus on my way home. By then, it was too late already.

Haizz...What a day to start with on weekdays! Guess it's not my day afterall.

Now still having no appetite to eat and having tummyache. The more I force myself to eat, the higher chance of me wanting to vomit. To look at the good side, I can lose some weight, right?

2010-01-16T22:18:00.004+08:00

Didn't have the time to update what happened ystd since I straight away sleep after reached home. My sis with her friends including me too went to Hardy Mirza short concert at Ngee Ann Poly. It was only 1 hour. Sis get free tickets during NP open house.

After the concert finished, sis and I went separate ways. She hangs around with her friends while me went to CCK waiting for hubby finish working. Hubby bought for me a bear, to be exact it's like a Chipmunks. I don't know how many teddy bears I have on my bed.
So sweet of him!

Woke up early in the morning to jog with him. We have fun together. Mostly we walked than jog. Haha, feel tired after a few metres of jogging. Reached home my leg feel pain and tired, and I continued sleeping. Then at night, went to hubby's house with my parents to return the engagement 'dulang' that belongs to hubby's mum.

2010-01-15T08:24:00.003+08:00

Went to watch movie 'Daybreakers' ystd after school with hubby. Looking at all the blood oozing out..EEEE....straight away I closed my eyes. Listening to them eating the body...EEE....very disgusting and scary! I can't see too much blood.
It will freak me out.

While waiting for hubby that finished work at 6pm, I did my RJ first at Plaza Singapura Mc'Donald. Poor me leaving me alone all by myself..Took movie tickets first at his workplace, Far East Plaza then went to Dhoby Ghaut alone. He bought tickets from his manager at $14 instead of $20. Today's is premiere of Daybreakers so usual price is $10/person.

Went home by taxi as hubby don't want me to get scolding from my parents due to going home late.

Today my sister has free tickets to Hardy Mirza's concert at Nngee Ann Poly. So will be going with her. After my school, going to zoom to Ngee Ann Poly.

2010-01-13T21:52:00.003+08:00

At last I get to go to ION Orchard to see the toilet that my classmate said is beautiful. Hubby and I take a walk around Orchard. I didn't know there's new shopping mall at Somerset call the 313@Somerset.

Went inside and WAH..nicely built. The toilet is also not bad. As usual the products there are expensive and high class type. We just window shopping. Saw many shops will be opening soon in Orchard. I think one day when I come down to Orchard after few months, I might not recognise it anymore or maybe can even get lost.

Thinking of wanting to catch a movie 'Daybreakers' but it hasn't released yet. Maybe tmrw we going to watch it as it'll be releasing tmrw.

2010-01-11T20:04:00.003+08:00

Entrepreneurship module today. The topic quite easy. My team leader decided not to give work and talk to one of my team member. Why? Because she didn't do work and maybe my team leader wants to teach her a lesson.

My fren and I felt bad ignoring her. I'm not sure if the faci realise that she didn't present during meeting 3. But I think the faci will know after he sees the end of the presentation that shows she didn't do her part.

Not she didn't do work totally just that I can see she's lazy and do work easy way out(not putting in much effort). So that's why my team leader feel fed-up despite telling her to do work.

Accounting test today..Think it's quite more difficult than the previous test. Have been studying the whole night ystd but when I sat for the test, I'm stuck. Haizz..I don't know how I'm going to score for this module.

2010-01-10T14:04:00.002+08:00

CRY CRY CRY..THAT'S ALL I DO WHEN I'M FEELING DOWN. ONLY HERE I GUESS CAN BE MY PLACE TO SHOUT MY INNER STRUGGLE.

HAVEN'T STUDY FOR ACCOUNTING TEST. AND STILL DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO. NO ONE IS FREE TO HELP ME. SO LEFT ME HERE ALONE WONDERING HOW I SIT FOR MY TEST TMRW. AND WHILE I'M WONDERING, I CRIED.

AFRAID..AFRAID I'LL FAIL MY TEST AGAIN. I DON'T WANT TO RETAKE ANY MODULE. MY GPA FOR LAST SEM WAS NOT SO GOOD. THAT MEANS I HAVE TO DEPEND ON THIS SEM TO PULL MY GPA UP AND PROCEED TO 2ND YEAR.

HAIZZZZZZZZZZ........

2010-01-09T20:55:00.003+08:00

Putting peel-off mask on her face. The nose looks big when she puts that mask.

I would like to share this msg below hubby sent to me ystd but I was asleep alrd when he sent me the msg.

'As I keep thinking of u, i keep fallin in love with u..this love is endless. its ur voice, ur sweet voice that i love to hear. ur pure shyness when i stare at u with love intent..too much to tell u..if u call me nw, i'll tell u more nw..'

Sooo the very sweet kan? He wrote it himself. Soon after I read this msg when I woke up, I called him but he's busy working.

Not everytime he sent me those type of msg so I feel happy and makes me smile ear to ear after read that msg. I LOVE U!

2010-01-09T19:03:00.006+08:00

After school ystd went to meet my sister and her friend, Wani at Causeway. Actually suppose to meet in RP as there's open house and she wanted to take a look at the courses available. But we meet at Causeway instead.

I ate Hotplate Chicken Hor Fun and my sis ate Seafood noodle at Banquet. Looks nice but taste is not nice. Like my sis said maybe the chef having no mood while cooking and no love being put in. But we managed to eat finish. Thanks for the treat sis! ;)

One of my classmate treats me cupcake and I shared it with sis. I'll share it with hubby too if he tells me earlier we are going home together. The cream on top is not so sweet which is good but the filling inside has too little chocolate.

Then accompanied Wani went to window shopping. While she window shopping, my eyes too look at the things that pass by me. There's so many things I would like to buy if I have the money. Tempting..Especially in Cotton On. I want that skirt..and jacket too..

Then another of my sis's fren joined us. After 1 hour of window shoppping, Wani's dad came and fetched her home. Coincidencely hubby finished work at 6pm so he came to Wdls to go home together with me.

So while waiting for hubby to reach, we bought Bubble tea.
Went home with hubby and my sis by bus.

Today my sis went to RP open house with her friend. She planning to take the new course in RP which I want to take too if I am her batch. The course is Diploma in Wellness, Lifestyle and Spa Management.

Not fair! That time when she wanted to choose a course in ITE, there's new course coming too which is the Childhood which I also wanted and now..this new diploma course coming which I'm interested too.

Nvm not my luck I guess. :(

Going to do my RJ now. The faci extend to tonight as some of my classmate have to perform during today's open house and may not have the time to do RJ. This faci is great!

2010-01-07T21:45:00.003+08:00

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/caught_in_the_act/300696/4_men_harass_woman_at_countdown_party_but_no_one_helped.html

A lot people know about this story already where girl was molested by 4 Banglas at Siloso beach countdown party. You can view the link above for those who didn't know about this.

Read from the article and some said that the girl is a 'Ah kua', transexual from Thailand.

2010-01-07T20:35:00.003+08:00

Glad that hubby is ok after accidentally hit by a metal thing above his head ystd. I was worried. He showed me the bruise on his forehead that is put with a plaster. Saw a bit of blood. Luckily it is not so deep. He said after he gets hit, he felt dizzy. Told him to go to doctor but he don't want.

How careless can he be..That's why I must be besides him everytime to take care of him..That's what I always say to him when he's careless. Text him asking if he's feeling better and yup, he's feels a bit ok.

Hope it doesn't affect his health. Take really good care of yourself tau.

2010-01-06T21:55:00.003+08:00

My shoulder muscle starts having stiffness again since school has already started. It is because of the laptop. Using backpack and shoulder bag are still the same- my shoulder will be stiff. I use a massage oil to reduce the stiffness.

Today I went to YOG briefing and interview at Tanglin Road accompanied by hubby. But after I sat there for 15 mins, I went home. Why?..

Because hubby told me the briefing and interview is 3 hours. And I was shocked. He said he was told by one of the person in charge when he waited for me below the stairs.

So..hubby told me to go home. He don't want me to stay. Moreover, my CE points is completed so he sees no reason for me to participate. If I get paid, thats a different story but for this case, CE points is given. He's my fiancee so I have to respect him and he also have the right to voice out.

So we went home. Before that, we ate Mac at CCK. Two days I didn't ate my mum's cook at home as I feel more sleepy than hungry.

Reached home get scolding from my mum because she saw me wearing eyeshadows. She scolded me 'saying go to school wear make-up, go to school to study not to doll yourself to look pretty'. Straight away I went inside my room avoiding the nagging. I just wear light make-up. Itupon cannot see as I'm wearing spectacle.

I wear because today got interview so I wear a light one only. Shoudn't open my spec when I walked pass my mum.

2010-01-04T08:29:00.004+08:00

School has started..and I'm feeling lazy now...Start of the day for school..Still have holidays mood..Feeling even bored.

Today is the 1st day for my brother in school. He's now in Primary 1. Remind me during I was in primary school. I cried for few days in school coz I was so scared and don't want to let go of my parents' hands. I'm afraid of strangers u see. So that explains my terrified.

Hope my brother can behave himself and make new friends, and can get along with them. I wish to accompany him to school but I start school early. I thought of wanting to eat in the primary school canteen bcoz the food price there are cheap. And see my teachers that used to teach me.

Well too bad for me..But I'm sure I'll have the opportunity to go there since my bro in the same pri sch as me before.

Hope he can adapt himself fast in his new school environment.

2010-01-03T04:41:00.005+08:00

It's 4.41am. And here I am still not yet sleeping. I toss and turn in bed trying to sleep but I can't. Because why..not bcoz my sis is snoring. Because I think abt my past. That I regret all my life and I don't forgive myself.

When some said why I even qualify to go to Polytechnic just because I'm not good at smthg, I wonder..Going to Poly means that person is cleverer than others who are not in Poly? I don't think so..

They can even cleverer than us who go into Poly.

When comes into philosophy of life, I'm suck at it. I'm in Poly as my results are good. In ITE, there are books so usually I memorise the information. And when I'm lucky, the exam qns came out the one that I studied.

But in Poly, I really struggle..Although test is open-laptop(book) test, the qns are not straightforward. I find it difficult to study through laptop.

Btw..today's is Atikah's engagement day, my dear ITE friend. I feel so happy for her. May she'll be happy always with her fiancee. Congrats Atikah! =)

2009-12-30T00:06:00.009+08:00

Here's some of the photos taken by the photographer on my engagement day. I smiled as I looked through the photos esp seeing hubby. The photos was in the CD and in the photo album too. The CD cover is hubby pic was wearing for me the ring with a close-up too. And one 8R photo of me. =)
Good job photographer!

When the photographer saw me in the house when giving the photos, he said I looked different from the day on my engagement day. Because I'm wearing spec with my long untied hair and not in make-up. That's why.

2009-12-26T21:43:00.006+08:00

Watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 at Tampines. Went with hubby's fren, suppose to be a double date but in the end it's juz 3 of us. The movie was cute but to me it's quite a common storyline, having a bad guy wanting to make money through the chipmunks.

Hubby fetched me by taxi from Phoenix bus stop, all the way went to Kembangan played game for a while. Then headed to Tamp. The tickets were selling fast($10/ticket) so we ended up choosing the 1st row seat as all seats were full. Luckily the screen was not so near to our eyes that will make our neck pain seeing up the screen.

We sneaked in Long John Silver's food in the cinema as we have not eaten yet and the movie going to start. Shh...

Went home by taxi to avoid my parents scolding/nagging if reach home late. It was peak hour time so I feel quite bad having him paying..It was $7 extra charge! Very2 expensive.. So sorry hubby..

This week, I've met him thrice. Wah..wonderful! That's why my parents nag at me esp my mum for always going out. She nagged coz I shld be sitting at home studying for my tests instead of going out with him. Not included the day that I went out to do project. Next week will be meeting my friend to study together and doing project too.

Next week can't meet hubby as there won't be any off day for hubby starting tmrw as he'll be busy with New Year coming. That's why he's dissapointed when my mum in the 1st place don't allow me to go out.

So today's dating consider to make up for next week.

2009-12-23T09:20:00.003+08:00

Went to ICA building with hubby ystd to replace my loss IC. It has been lost 5 months ago. And I have to pay $60 instead of $100 because it's a stolen case. So I get to apply for waiver. In 1 month's time, I'll be getting my new IC.
Lesson learnt: I'll keep my IC at home unless necessary then I bring.

Now, I'm waiting for Strat in school library. She's just woke up when I just about to reach school. I understand she's tired and not having enough sleep after came back from work.

We going to study first then do our project with the rest of my team members.
Going to go to my friend's house to cook in the afternoon.

2009-12-21T18:16:00.015+08:00

Photos Credit: Rafa'ah hp, Hidayu's blog and Faridah & Atikah FB

Ystd was the day that I finally waiting for. Ystd I officially has been someone fiancee alrd. That person is Md Azmi Md Noor. Took a lot of photos. The part that I was very shy and my heart beat fast was where he came into my room and put for me the ring. Hubby said he didn't expect he put for me the ring that's why he was very very nervous.( I can see that)

These are the gifts that hubby gave me:
> Towel written 'Selamat Bertunang' on it
> Purple Grapes on a big basket
> Fruits on another basket
> A few tidbits
> Telekong, sejadah, Al-Quran on each wrapping paper respectively
> Selendang
> Kain to make Baju kurung
> Charles & Keith bag and heel shoes(love it)
> Cupcakes
> Maybelline make-up set (love these too)
> Sum of money
> Ring to exchange

While I gave him these:
> Levis jeans and belt
> Crocodile shirt
> Adidas shoes
> Cake for his birthday
> Cupcakes
> Fruits
> A ring to exchange
> Sejadah with kiblat compass

To those who attended my engagement day, thank you all. Especially my grandma that has came here from Malaysia. And to my sis and Azura, thanks for helping out by clearing the plates and washed them. Although I know there's short of manpower, you guys still doing a great job.

Not forgetting those that make this occasion a successsful one. Especially my neighbours in front. They have helped a lot. Thank you. Really appreciate it =)

Glad that ystd occasion went smoothly.

The engagement ring, hubby and I putting it on the necklace and wear it. So it'll not be lost. I'm wearing it now at home.

Btw, there's a lot of leftover food. Gave to hubby and the neighbours some of it. And and..I aware that my red lipstick was thick ystd. I know I looked like a Dracula like my sis said. Hubby also agreed and he added a cute one. "-.-

Happy Birthday hubby. And I really love you too ;)) May we be happy always and our relationship will stay strong.

2009-12-15T12:20:00.003+08:00

This is the flashmob video I would like to share with you all. It's cool, one start dancing and the whole audience start joining in.

2009-12-14T21:42:00.005+08:00

Less than 1 week to go..And my dad doesn't allow me to go out these few days..
Just now I went home late je, my dad shouted at me over the phone.

Finally more or less all is settle. Just order my contact lens just now with hubby at CCK. He bought spectacles from there too. Been thinking and finding where I can find 1 day contact lens but there is none, all sell in boxes.

So glad that hubby knew what I'm hinting when I text him ystd, and bought for me the daily contact lens in box. Inside have 5 lens so I can wear for 5 days.

Today is my last day in school. Holiday has started. But I need to meet up to do projects and study with my friends during the holidays. There's 2 more tests waiting when school reopens. Maths and accounting..Not my interest..But too bad still need to study. Hope my friends can help me.

Exchanging gifts in class just now for Christmas in advance. I get a necklace from Strat. Nice..A butterfly shape. Hao Jie has my gift which are the biscuit waffle and Ferro-roche.

The class was very hypher and active today. Maybe because of the holiday.

Btw, got my hair rebonded instead of just going for hair treatment. I don't know how the outcome will be a few weeks later. Let's see..

2009-12-11T11:43:00.003+08:00

Guess where am I now?
I'm in the school library studying.

Decided not to come to class today but only come for the test. I need to study because I haven't yet study. Took a nap ystd wanting to wake up and study with a fresh mind. But instead I took a long nap, be more precise I slept the whole night.

Wow, woke up it's alrd 3.30am and quickly woke up to study. Didn't even do my RJ. I set alarm clock but I switched it off.

Now I'm feeling fresh after the long sleep. Hope with a fresh mind, I can do my test well.

Ok I want to continue my revision now. Later after test meet hubby.=)

2009-12-10T13:29:00.002+08:00

Thought of going partial today and study for my Marketing test tmrw.

My day feels dull again..Don't know why. I think because I'm bored with school. Having the same routine over and over again. And there's nothing much to look forward to.
Unless I meet hubby for the day that's why today I text him hoping we can meet but...he's got meeting.

Get all my grade for my tests alrd. Make my day pull down even more.

So too bad Fatimah..
U can continue your day feeling dull..

Financial Accounting which honestly speaking I DON'T KNOW A THING..All the new terms coming up makes me really lost. Thought of going partial but in the end, my butt is still sitting on the class chair, not going home.

So I just continue doing my work.

2009-12-07T17:41:00.004+08:00

Woke up feeling no mood. Thinking of Maths module that really I don't like making my Monday blues more bluer. Test week again..Aiyo..So boring..

Taking MRT same as hubby. All the way I don't have mood thinking of all these. Till I seems like ignoring hubby..So Sorry...Didn't mean it, really..Juz feeling plain boring..

But as the day passed by, I felt a bit better as I get good team member that good in Maths. So I feel motivated to learn. And also she's the type that not selfish with her knowledge. I sit besides her so I can keep track of what's she doing. But I still don't how to solve the 3 types of rules. Have to practice it when I'm free. When I see a lot of numbers je, straight away I don't want to see. It's making me confused.

Reached school and text him saying sorry. And he last minute asked me out at 5pm. I was just reaching home that time. Next time then we meet. But no last min k.

Btw, there was a fight happened in my school just now. At my level..I saw policemen and parademic at there near the toilet area. I kepo2 went to toilet and saw quite a few policemen there. Looks like a serious case..

Heard the fight broke out after there was a stare and stare moment. I thought one to one fight. BUT NO! Saw from my fren's twitter. It was 20 GUYS whacked 1 POOR GUY..Oh my..

No wonder there were ard 6 policemen there. Very serious..and violence too. Luckily I was not there(going to toilet or refill water) when the fight broke out. Scary..Eh wait I'm nt sure where the fight happened.

The police were there for ard 2 hours. When my class finished and I wanted to go home, I didn't see any police there.

How's the poor guy doing? Heard from my friend he has bruises. But 20 guys beat 1 guy? Tink it's more than bruises I guess..

See how word of mouth travel fast..It's the same as selling a product. Customer's word passed to another customer. Like this they'll know how the company is like - bad or good service/product provided.(Ni dh random) Mentang2 learn Marketing, terbwk2 pulak.

2009-12-05T20:31:00.004+08:00

Went Orchard after school ystd met hubby. Bought something there. Bump into Atikah with her mum on my way to town. Didn't go to ION which I wanted to step in. My friend said the toilet at there is very nice, nicer than Iluma toilet.

Then we alighted at CCK to eat. Bought black pepper chicken from KFC. Quite spicy and tasty. Inside have 4 big pieces so we shared. Love the crispy skin outside.

Niwaes still feeling phobia when taking the lift. When I took the lift ystd, I afraid I'll hear that voice again.

2009-12-04T08:10:00.003+08:00

Reached class at 7.52am. At last I get to be the 1st person in class. Been wanting to be the 1st person to reach in class. I went to school with one of my classmate. We bump in while I'm on my way to school.

After school, will meet hubby. He always say last minute. If I know earlier, I 'll wear nice2.

Hubby's fren said to him dat maybe I got took picture at lonely place around 6-7pm and it disturb me. maybe...in the toilet dat time I took pic on tuesday..Coz suddenly I felt eerie when I took picture.

2009-12-03T21:20:00.003+08:00

My question was is there ghosts in the afternoon? And my friend said yes as her mum encountered it before. Feeling more scared..

Here's the story. On my way home, I took lift to go up to my floor. There's 2 person in the lift coming out of the lift. I'm alone stepping in the lift. While I step in, I heard a someone's voice. It's like someone clearing her voice(like this:hehem) The voice was deep. I thought it was the person that came out from the lift, but the voice was different.

When the lift was closed, I turned behind to see if there's someone because maybe I overlook didn't realise there's also a person went in the same lift. But there's no one.

So soon I forgot about it thinking maybe my ears played on me. Then the lift reached my floor. As I step out the lift, I heard the same voice again! And it's really like someone in the lift behind me!

Heard the "hehem" sound, and...I think I heard it said bye, Fatimah. it was clear. The sound came from that lift. ?!!##$%%%&&***@#! Guess what I did? Apa lagi, I quickly took out my keys frm my bag and quickly open the door feeling very very scared.

I'm the type that tk kuat semangat. I looked at the lift again and saw it going to the 1st floor.

But now what I'm worried and scared about is...hope it is not here..
Scared it'll follow me.

Hubby lagi make me more scared sending msg that scared me.

Soooo scary...As i was typing and describing here, I feel scared back. And being paranoid. I was easily feel shocked with any noise that I heard suddenly. Just now, suddenly heard my mum's voice opening my room door. I was jumpy as I was feeling scared.

Trying to keep my mind busy not thinking about it to avoid being so scared. But sometimes it'll come to my mind. Maybe I'll hold my pee middle of the night when I awake to go to toilet where everyone has slept alrd.

2009-12-02T18:53:00.003+08:00

Went to meet Atikah to have lunch together at Causeway banquet after school. Ate fishball noodle. Was very hungry as I only ate porridge in school during the 1st break, 9.45am.

Feeling very2 sleepy...Not so focus during lesson. My eyes are heavy asking me to sleep..This marketing facilitator always look with very serious face when the class are presenting. Feel not motivated while presenting with her kind of look.

Like the Accounting faci. Every sentence we present, he'll said good, good. It makes me feel confident when presenting my slides.

2009-12-02T13:15:00.006+08:00

My friend sent me this statement below. She wants to share this with me. She's actually wrote this by herself. Creative..

"I hate love. i hate how everyone(including myself) is so obsesses over it. i hate how it has the idiotic power to break or make you and i hate how every decision and words is dependent on the outcome of love and i hate how love ruins relationships with families with friends. I hate how the lack of it makes you feel disgusting and ugly and not worth it. fck love
but still we breathe for it"

Added by me: But Love can bring happiness that a person is seeking..And it can appears to be happy memorable one.

Slept late again for 2hours..Not because I'm doing project..Thinking on the bed of the memories we shared together..Really2 regret on what I've done..Figuring out how's my life will be w/o that sumone...Really hope all went fine and smoothly..

2009-12-01T20:55:00.006+08:00

Wear formal again to school for Entrepreneurship module. My feet feel pain and tired of wearing heels walking to school and back home. Wearing heels looks nice and girly, but merana..Also can feel tall for a day. Wish my height is that tall.

Reached home, opened my shoes and felt relieved after 1 and a half day with heels.

I think our next formal wear will be in week 14.

Was so busy today as there's work to be completed by 3rd meeting at 1.30pm.
We were presenting our business ideas in the lecture room combining with the other class. Luckily only 1 class. If not, I'll be very nervous.

I did the 'elevator pitch' standing alone using microphone on the mini stage and said briefly about my group business ideas. The rest of my team members were presenting the ppt slides that they did.

Felt relieved after all that need to be done are finished. Can feel the tense and stress in the class. Everybody were like doing their work in order to finish on time. Extra hardworking today.

Actually I want to take pictures again in the toilet above(nk syok sendiri) but I felt eerie as I was the only person inside and that time was 6.05pm alrd, quite late. And the area was quite deserted. So I quickly took the last picture and rushed outside. I just finished attending the Maths workshop.

Btw, my faci said our class did very badly for our Entre test 1. Oh my, hw will I be doing..*biting fingernails* Waiting for the grade...

2009-11-30T22:58:00.005+08:00

Today Maths module, I have learnt something for the 1st time! It's about differentiation. When the facilitator gave me question, I able to answer it. Just substitute the numbers. I wish every lesson will be easy for me to understand.

Did Entrepreneurship project with my team members. As usual one is not cooperating. And I listen to my friend's complaints all the way to Yishun. Poor her, she's even took off for her work just to do this project, not getting salary, sick sumore. Bt she willing to stay for proj.

Then what abt the other one? She's got car and she brings excuses that her mum didn't allow her to drive at Yishun. I tink she's want to cut her fuel. Bt she's drive to Bugis to meet her frens later on! Oh, go out with friends and meet her fav artistes, can la? She can spend time with friends but not proj? WTH!

Went to Yishun to see the shop there that sell potatoes, the one that we'll be doing. So we tasted a few types. Hmm..as I was hungry, I felt that the food was quite nice but once I ate, I don't want to eat again coz dh muak. We didn't ate finished. But the price was quite affordable. The place is very small looks like a living room.

Have to sacrifice for my ez-link card fare for project. Really dissapointed with 1 of my team member. Thought I can tumpang in her car to go to Yishun as it was our proj work. She's shld be enjoying somewhere while we were doing our proj...

Went home with hubby from Yishun. He finished his work early and waited for me at platform. Share with him what has happened. Reached home at 8.30pm.

Now I have to do executive summary. We divided our work and compile tmrw.

Hubby also has work to do, doing a powerpoint.

2009-11-30T11:39:00.002+08:00

AT LAST, I HV FULFILL MY CE POINTS. I was quite surprised to have 2 DA points for STB F1 Ambassador 2009. I didn't even participate in the event. Maybe the talk and the interview gets me 2 DA points? Hmm..I wonder how many points altogether when participate in the event? Later ask my friend who participate if I saw her in school.

2009-11-29T15:25:00.000+08:00

The Meaning

To love is to share life together
to build special plans just for two
to work side by side
and then smile with pride
as one by one, dreams all come true.

To love is to help and encourage
with smiles and sincere words of praise
to take time to share
to listen and care
in tender, affectionate ways.

To love is to have someone special
one who you can always depend
to be there through the years
sharing laughter and tears
as a partner, a lover, a friend.

To love is to make special memories
of moments you love to recall
of all the good things
that sharing life brings
love is the greatest of all.

I've learned the full meaning
of sharing and caring
and having my dreams all come true;
I've learned the full meaning
of being in love
by being and loving with you.

2009-11-28T19:15:00.004+08:00

Thought I'll just stayed at home during Hari Raya Haji ystd as my family usually didn't went out during the occasion. But I received a call from hubby saying that his mum invited me over to his house. I ate lontong with the usual side dishes when served during Hari Raya. There's also kuih. I ate the chocolate chip. His mum made it. Nice!

I stayed there around 3 hours. Then hubby and I went to watch movie at Lot 1. It's been a while we haven't watch movies together. Hubby wanted to watch Ninja Assasin but it started at 7pm which was quite late for me. So we watched Twilight New Moon at 5.45pm.

I've been wanting to watch it. Hubby wanted to give me a surprise. I didn't know that the movie has come out.

It was a romantic movie. Hubby thought he'll sleep in the movie like what he did when he watched the 1st movie of Twilight from the net. He said Part 2 is much better as there was action being put in.

While waiting for the movie to start, we ate ice-cream. I ate snowflakes choc ice-cream while he ate waffle with cinnamon ice-cream. To me the cinnamon is not nice.

Reached home at around 8.30pm.

2009-11-25T19:24:00.003+08:00

Dating with my ITE friends ystd, Azimah and Atikah. It'll be more fun if Faridah and Saza join us. We went to Changi Airport, ate there with a 'great scenery'. Haha!
Chit-chat update our own life. As usual we'll always laugh. Went home by bus.

Nearly left my laptop on the chair. Didn't realise coz the colour of the chair and my laptop casing have the same colour so it camouflage. Luckily, I remember as I felt there was smthg missing and when I turned around, there it was on the chair.
Phew! What a close one..

Reached home and quickly do my RJ. Write a short one as I have no idea what to write.

2009-11-23T19:49:00.005+08:00

Not much going on today. Wear formal to school today for Entrepreneurship module. Today is networking lesson so we exchanging "business cards" with the other classes to introduce our company. Act like a professional business man/woman.

Week 14 we have to set up a business stall and sell what we plan. So it's quite tough thinking of all the business plan. Have to submit executive summary next week. Haizz..Project has started.

Went to lecture theatre at 2nd meeting. Discuss the worksheet there with the other 4 classes after exchanging 'cards'.

Next week, we also have to wear formal. I don't have much for formal clothes..

Just checked my points for CE activity and I have 41 points alrd. But I need 2 more DA points and my CE activity is fulfill. There's Jurong Bird Park volunteer, they haven't upload the points so I think after that fulfill alrd.

Wow, before 1 year I have completed my CE activity. Thanks to my activeness. So I can relax after that. If there's exciting activity, maybe I consider of joining. Give a thought alrd about joining Malay Dance IG in my 2nd year. I don't want to join any IG. Everyday went home late. Tiring. Bknnye I continue my studies to University pon.

Niwaes looking forward to go out dating with my Girlfriends tmrw. Miss them a lots..But it'll be better if the other 2 persons follow so we are complete.
Going to drink plenty of water so I can talk non-stop tmrw. Haha!

2009-11-22T12:13:00.002+08:00

I'VE FOUND MY RING BACK. YEAH!!! I'M SO HAPPY AND GLAD TO HEAR THE NEWS FROM MY SIS YSTD.

I'm feeling quite down after get scolding from my parents ystd before I went out to hubby's sis house. I don't know what happen at home while I'm outside.

Received message from my sis at ard 7.30pm saying that gd news awaits me when I reached home. Really hope the ring has been found and yes it is. My sis thought of surprising me when I reached home but my dad told her to tell me as he knew that I'm feeling down.

My sis found it inside one of my sch bag pocket. Hmm..I don't rmbr putting it inside..When did it go there? I'm certain it's in my house. Luckily not lost outside the house. The ring is so halus. Quite tough to find it if it's lost.

Niwaes, I'm glad that I've my ring back. My dad thought I sold it to pawnshop. How can I right. It means me a lot. I'll not do such thing.

My mum kept the ring for me afraid that I lost it again. She does not allow me to wear to school anymore. I'm not sure when can I wear it.

2009-11-22T11:41:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, Saturday, went to hubby's sister house at Pasir Ris. She has kenduri for her son cukur rambut. Quite far huh but it's ok as long there's free transport. Hehe. She invited my family and I but my dad worked so my parents unable to come. So I went with hubby. His bro-in-law fetched me using hubby's dad car. 1st time I saw the car that hubby has talked abt. He'll take over that car after he gets his driving license.
Wow! I'm impressed.

Ate nasi minyak with the side dishes. Also there were fruit cocktail, curry puff and bubur kacang. His sister's house is nice, beautifully decorated.

The 3rd above photo is her son. The 1st two photos is hubby's sis-in-law son. Both cute right? Get to touch and kiss them.

Hubby and I went home by train as his bro-in-law went out already. So we can't tumpang the car as hubby don't know where he is. He said that he should went out jalan2 with hubby's brother. So no free transport.

Reached home at 10pm. Otw home, he have told me something that making me jealous. Although it's a history, still I'm feeling jealous.

2009-11-22T11:19:00.003+08:00

Didn't update for the past two days as I was tired and sleepy by the time I reached home. Now I'll update what's going on for the past 2 days.

On last Friday, after I attend the appreciation dinner for Jurong Bird Park volunteers in school, I rushed back to home to attend my brother kindergarten graduation ceremony. I put my bag at home first then rushed to CCK CC hoping that I did not miss my brother receiving the certificate.

And ya, when I reached, the next two classes will be my brother's class. He looked cute standing up the stage and received the cert. Chubby and big-sized among his friends.

Watched concert while eating fries and burgers from Mac. Finished at 9pm and walked home.
Ceh, he'll be in pri 1 next year. Grown-up child alrd. Hope he'll lose some weight in pri school.

2009-11-19T20:23:00.004+08:00

When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.[This part is what I always feel when we want to go home. Feel of berat hati to part from u]

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You."

2009-11-19T19:44:00.004+08:00

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

Love is like a mustard seed;
planted by God
and watered by men.

There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved.

AND THAT'S WHAT MAKE ME HAPPY NOW. I LOVE U FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.

2009-11-18T20:19:00.004+08:00

My classmates disturbed me again by usik2 thinking that I got a date wearing nice outfit today to school. One of my friend asked why am I wearing so girly today. That means am I wearing like a tomboy before this? My sister said maybe what my friend meant as girly is sexy. I just wear what I feel like wearing for each day je, just random picked any clothes.

Quite boring in school coz Hidayu not in school. She should be sick and rest at home. After sch, meet my sister at Woodlands. Thought of watching movie together but we both didn't bring enough money as it was a last minute plan. So we just walked around in the shopping centre while chit-chatting.

Just saw my UT grade for Cognitive. Just what I expected because that time I didn't do finish and just submit the answer as I was urgent to go to toilet. HAIZZ...

2009-11-17T19:33:00.002+08:00

Received letter for poor attendance to school. Thought it combines with last semester attendance but only this semester. I have not come for 3 classes, and they sent me letter alrd. Like, wth, I thought not coming to sch many times then received letter. AND what's more I have MC for that 2 days and still they said I have poor attendance. ???!!! They approved my MC somemore. ???!!!!

BTW, encounter this with Hidayu just now. I tell you we felt traumatised alrd taking the stairs.

We had our stress session today. While waiting at 5pm, we went down the stairs to W4 canteen. Ate waffle ice-cream there. We took stairs too to go up to 4th storey since it's only 1 level above.

SUDDENLY...when we opened the door, the doors on both sides closed by itself with the alarm sound. It sounded like the siren where the Civil Defence force played during Total Defence Day.

Was so panicked and scared. Hidayu and I quickly rushed to the door to get out. I was scared the door will locked and will be trap inside. As I rushed, I looked behind so Hidayu will be closed aside with me. I was afraid the door will automatic be locked before her and she will be left behind. Seeing how panic she was and me too.

A lot of things was in my mind when that incident happened. Will we be alright, will we be trapped inside, is it our fault that the alarm suddenly sounds?

My heart was still beating fast due to panic after the alarm was over. It happened during we took the stairs pulak tu. Wrong timing la..

Then we heard announcement saying that 'it was a false alarm, sorry for the inconvenience.' Inconvenience?? Was very panic ar seeing the doors suddenly closed with the alarm sound.

Hidayu and I thought of the same thing too. We thought that the announcement will said the alarm sounds due to someone open the door and that was us. It's bcoz as we opened the door, the alarm sounds.

We straight away don't want to take the stairs alrd and took the lift. The lift was also not working when the alarm sounds.

In the end, we laughed when think about it. What a day..

2009-11-16T19:53:00.005+08:00

Overall test 1...hmm..Pray hard I'll not fail..Haizz..All the way in the bus, think about it.

The sky now was dark pink in colour. Weather nowadays have been the same, changing- morning hot, in the afternoon it'll rain and cold till stops at night. Tmrw I guess will be the same too? That's why people are falling sick.

In my class just now, my friends kept sneezing and having flu already. Oh no, hope it'll not spread to me. I have just recovered. Went home ate my antibiotic hoping it'll help prevent me from the virus.

On my way back home, heard someone called my name. Thought people disturbing me that's why I ignore at 1st. But it's my name I'm hearing. Thought which mat that called me rupanye my sec sch friend. Quite surprised he said hi to me. I also recognised the one besides him but I feel he's quite arrogant. Bcoz we used to saw each other but he didn't even smiled at me. Maybe it's bcoz we are not that familiar with each other.

2009-11-16T15:17:00.005+08:00

Having a bad stomach cramp now. Very painful. It affects my day, my diet, my lesson, my mood but hope it doesn't affect my test in an hour's time. Bought pink pill to relieve my cramp. Get frequent pain now every month compared when I was in sec sch.

Affect my mood till when this Indian person terlanggar me, my face was like not happy because I'm enduring the cramp. Then I heard if I'm not wrong, "Sial la the face." SORRY LA! Whatever. Hit me at the wrong time.

Remind me of my tutor when I was Sec 5. That time I don't have my cramp that often. She said usually when now you don't feel cramp, later when your age increase, you will feel frequent cramp. And that's happen to me now.

Search in the net on how to reduce menstrual cramp. They said reduce consumption of salt, sugar and caffeine. Oops, I just ate french fries which contain salt. Increase intake of calcium-rich foods. Saying of that, I'll buy soya bean now.

Wish me luck for my Accounting test later!